Archive for December 11th, 2010
Writing

December 2 – Writing.
What do you do each day that doesn’t contribute to your writing — and can you eliminate it?

My job doesn’t contribute to my writing.  My job keeps me so busy that I don’t have time to blog anymore.  I don’t fancy myself a particularly skillful writer, nor do I have designs on ever becoming “a writer” per se.  I write because I think it’s a useful tool for self-reflection.  It’s a means to an end for me.  I don’t do much writing in my current job (I don’t count the untold e-mails that I send each day reiterating my attendance and grading policies), although I would relish the challenge of authoring a textbook in my field, or articles related to higher education issues.  I would not have time to embark on a project of this magnitude unless I was on sabbatical, which I wouldn’t qualify for until the year 2017.

Can I eliminate what doesn’t contribute to my writing?  Am I being asked whether I can eliminate my job?  The answer is yes, I *can* eliminate my job.  I am completely capable of quitting my job when my contract is up (in June).  But I won’t quit my job.  I can’t bring myself to do it.  And I don’t know why.

One Word

I’m crazy to start doing this at such a late date, but I decided to engage in a little reflection during this cold, dark month, a la #reverb10.  I have hardly done any writing this semester that was not specifically for work, and as a consequence, I’m really feeling the need to do a little bit of meditation as the year winds to a close.

Here’s my first crack at this:

December 1 – One Word. Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?

Conflicted.  I almost chose the word serendipitous, to reflect the weird turn of events with my job back in May, but upon closer reflection I thought that the word “conflicted” was more apt.  I am conflicted about career.  About Holden.  About the various ratios by which my time is divided between career and Holden at any given time.  I am conflicted about the next step.  About choices that seem to be permanent, and are therefore huge and looming.  How can I feel confident that the choices I make are the best?  I know that it’s a fantasy world to expect that every choice you make is met with 100% confidence in the quality, rightness, and future satisfaction of those choices.  That said, for 2011, I would like to have the word “contentment” replace the word “conflicted,” so that every choice I make over the next 12 months is made self-assuredly, without looking back…..